Life After Cancer — By on July 3, 2009 at 5:52 am


I was surprised I grabbed my camera that morning. I hadn’t so much as touched it in a while. And I am not sure why. Photography has become a needed hobby of mine. Something necessary to keep me grounded. It is something I started a short time before my cancer diagnosis and during my treatment I had gotten away from it.  But  in my after cancer life I find it is a way I deal with my fear.  When my head gets all out of whack spending an hour snapping pictures takes me to another place. It somehow gets me out of the crap in my head and into the present moment.

This picture is a small table top fountain I have in the living room. As I watched the water fall and drip, I thought about what a cool picture it could be. The light was beaming through the window casting shadows. Leaning left, then right, then stepping to the other side I smiled as I tried to get the best angle. I was eager to see the result. I love the look of black and white and even sepia. I must have taken twenty shots of that fountain as the sun slowly moved in the sky.

I often look at everyday things and its like I am viewing it through the camera lens. Moments like that distract me and quiet the noise rambling around in my head. All too often I think about the past, worry about the future and miss the present.

It is a way to deal with my anxiety and fear. It is part of how I deal with life after cancer. And besides all that….its fun!

Come to think of it….I need to get shutterbuggin!

Is there something you do to quiet your mind?  Were or are you anxious during treatment?  How do you deal with it?  How do you handle fear?   What gets you to stop and feel the moment?

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